One For The Deep Thought

Been a few days since my last post but a bit has happened in my unfortunately ever changing world and mental state. Iv been turned into a social reject, lost alot of my friends and even one of my house mates do'sent really speak to me, hay ho that seems to be my life tho. When you fall in love you can fall really hard and it will always hurt an awful lot because the ground isn't really that soft. Iv taken a Vow not to drink do drugs or have sex for 40 days and 40 nights, so im not smoking with Tom late at nite, no drinking with the guys and well no sex, not that i get any anyway lol. Iv taken this Vow to show people that im not an ass hole and that i can really change for the better, so this is day two of the 40 days, i want to go through hell so i can show the people i love and care about that i am a good person and not just your average scum bag, i love (....) fill in that blank for yourself. Humans are however a virus or a plague they are all corrupt and they all lie to your face and they do it with a smile on their faces they are always twisting things that they say. I dont want people to think of me like that, i tell the truth from here on in, anyone can ask me anything i i will tell them how, why, what, when, who or whatever they want. I am re-swearing the old code that i used to live by and now i am going to live by it forever, I am re-taking my knightly vows, i am blood and honour bound to the old code, i swear this on my life and i will uphold honour from here on, i have walked the path of the dark and now i will walk in the path of light. At the end of my 40 days of my time in the desert, alone in my own head i will have become stronger and i will be a better person for it. Jesus was a man of the people we were meant to follow his example, so i want to try and follow in his shadow, i will not be as great or as good or even close to him, but i will at least try in his example (and yes i will clear this up, im not a Christian, but i have been reading the bible, tho i don't keep it as my faith i can see why people believe in it, and i believe in the messages in it now, interesting fact) I will make people believe in me, im not saying hope as hoping leaves you with nothing, so i AM doing this and nothing will stop me. Love from me to you.

+++True love does not compromise nor condone hate; It destroys it-UB 188:5.2+++