The First Day Of The Rest Of My Life.....

I never need to cut myself again. Now that is one hell of an opening statement i know but it's true, there are much better things i can do instead, and they don't leave me covered in unsightly scares all over my body. I had my first ever tattoo done today and it was one of the strangest feelings ever, the only thing i can say that it is like is having a blunt knife tip scratching at your skin, it do-sent hurt it just feels like someone is deeply scratching you, but the sensation is so nice, the feeling is exquisite in its touch on your flesh. I drew and designed my tattoo, it is mine alone and is very important to me, i don't care what anyone else says. Im happy, truly happy with myself, iv got a much better outlook on life and everyone can see it now, people pay me compliments when im not expecting them, well probably because no one has before and it makes me feel more alive than ever, i love life to the full iv lost so much weight and i have gained so much confidence already, i really have shown my true colours now the way i am now is the way i will lead my life from here on as i have been, no longer am i the fat, stupid, drunk bastard that i was, i am now who i choose to be and i choose life and a shot at happiness, to make something. I know that people can se that i have changed, now for them just to believe it all works. when i started this 40 days without drink i was doing it for different reasons, now i am doing it for myself alone as there is only myself that i want to prove this to any more. My faith in humans is gone but my faith in my true real friends, my brothers, only gets stronger every day. Sealed in a heart shaped box.

+++Life and love will always find it's way to where it belongs+++