Enlightenment

Remember why i started this blog people, so i could let out all of my verbal ache's and pains well here comes the big outburst of hate that everyone has always wanted, anyone who knows me at least a bit well will know that due to the unbalanced nature of my ways to cross me or hurt me once and I'll give you the benefit of the doubt but to hurt me emotionally more than once and then you will have summoned down all of the vengeance that i can muster, which is pretty big when you watch and study people and realise that most of them are selfish users who want nothing more than to tear out your insides to make themselves feel better about their pathetic and shabby lives, i intend to pull an amazing recovery after being hurt very badly by someone i wish to rise up, like when my house-mate Tom was dumped by his girlfriend, by 12 the next day i could already hear him and someone else having sex in the room above me, god dam the thin floors in my house, that's a brilliant example of jumping straight back on the horse. Never Wound Something You Cant Kill, that's something that everyone should always remember and never ever try to take on something that is more twisted than you and hope to walk away smelling of roses and unhurt. My Darling Beki has been telling me when it's right and wrong to unleash my dark and twisty side and you know what locking it away so i can be romantic and have cuddles and talk about the world is really good, and letting it out in controlled ways is very helpful, she really does care alot, and she is amazing when the lights go out as well lol. Most of this blog entry is just random bits of data in my head little streams of information that i need to get out of my head. I don't hate my X, atm it's on the very tip of hate, but she needs to learn that people are people not just toys for her amusement things that she can toss around on a whim, which is what she has done with oh so many people now, she need's to be alone to actually learn a lesson or two not just use others as she always has done, unless she learns something she will never be cared for by anyone. DO you know all the things that i really hate, here's a list; long car journeys, chav's, egg's, football thugs, Being Played For A Fool, snipers on games, waking up to find its raining, mushrooms, the colour yellow, People Who Use Other People Like Pawns In Chess, Christian evangelists, yanks, my tattoo itching and i cant scratch it, LYING HUMANS.......with that list written out yes it is true at any one time i can hate an awful lot of things all at the same time, and yes i probably don't like you who are reading this very much at all if i were actually to meet you. I really have alot of aggression, alot i must find a vent for that, i need a duelling partner again, to fight is to unleash the beasts that are in your soul and i think mine really does need to be let out rite now. All that i am righting is my thought chain, my unsanity in the patters of logic that stream out of my head. It was a half good move coming home i really miss Beki and i miss her at night already but if i didn't come back i probably would have snapped the heads off the sunshine gang and then systematicly gone round destroying things that looked like they needed it, at least at home i can be calmed, Woo-Saa!! If anyone thinks all of this is real then they have another thin coming, ok i don't hate the colour yellow, i just dont like it, the rest is pretty real. I miss my Beki she would hug me through the night and bring my unsanity levels back to normal

+++Never Wound What You Cant Kill+++