Iv never done anything like this before and it could be interesting to see how long it goes on for, but we will see.
First of all i'll start as i mean to go on, i am a bad person, i know this and i live with it, im not hunting sympathy out on this web thingy i just want to vent stress out of my life. At this exact time of starting i am a 20 year old alcoholic who smokes too much and pretty much hates my own existence, there are many reasons for this which i will end up venting through slowly as i try and work through them. To try not to make my entire life seem like one big morbid joke to reality im gunna try to just sit and rite random shite out with no attachments to anything else.
I will start at the beginning im a real bad person which is why a hate myself, im a heart breaker and make other people who get close to me very sad and upset, which is what i have realised is the thing that is making me really down as all i have ever wanted to do is make other people happy but in doing so i almost always seem to shatter other people and more so myself, the cause of my unhappiness is me......
Im a uni student in the north of England im studying a joke of a degree but if it gets me a grade then i dont care so long as it gets me some sort of bit of paper with summit on it that says im not pit-scum and i can do summit a bit better than every other bugger on the planet. the town im studding in isnt very big and the people who call you a friend are also just as likely to be the ones who are spreading hate behind your back, its a glorious place. At this point tho i am at at home in the south of England as i needed to get space away from the place i live in up there.
Well i think this will do for my first ever blogg, there we go, virginity lost, good night.
+++ Knowledge is power, Guard it well+++
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